tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42473450165139958582024-02-08T02:51:51.910+08:00∞The real one is not nearly as real as the false one.Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.comBlogger119125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-33666761469267318572014-06-20T17:09:00.000+08:002014-06-20T17:17:28.549+08:00久違了這裡真是個陰沈的所在<br />
似乎只有惆悵脆弱不堪的時候<br />
才會想到來這荒蕪之地發發癲<br />
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可是現在是怎麼回事<br />
應該除了陰魂不散的論文之外一切安好才是<br />
是說這突然降臨的無限孤獨感是怎麼回事<br />
這完全不合常理不合邏輯不合時宜阿<br />
是因為有人剛離開我家門瞬間覺得孤單<br />
還是完成論文好像開始指日可待的突發失落<br />
還是什麼PMS偶爾也會肆虐<br />
還是因為一直下雨剛剛還突然下得很大的關係<br />
我哪知道到底又是怎麼一回事<br />
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一時之間竟然找不到想聽的音樂可以播放<br />
堪稱全宇宙最恐怖的事情之一<br />
不管播放什麼旋律都只是躁鬱程度上的差別<br />
就像找不到一個容身之處的難堪<br />
自生焦慮無限擴張讓人作繭自縛<br />
真是徹底被自己遺棄了啊<br />
一種不知足不惜福的自我觀感再度浮現<br />
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前幾天開始又一直被一個老梗繚繞<br />
大家都馬覺得自己很特別<br />
其實到底是有哪裡特別<br />
你哪知道自己算不算是特別<br />
怎麼能確定自己是不是真的特別<br />
事實上<br />
應該說到底什麼叫做「特別」<br />
這根本就是史上最抽象的形容詞<br />
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自溺情節總在困頓情境中一再湧現<br />
隨之而來又是漫長且無可奈何的自我療癒<br />
讓人好生厭倦的萬惡無限迴圈Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-9020040458706083142013-10-14T06:30:00.000+08:002014-01-31T23:00:45.686+08:00The Best offer (La Migliore Offerta) [2013]<span id="docs-internal-guid-2c899f15-e8bf-151d-7b1f-171655d7fba7"><div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.5; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #990000; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">God, perhaps you are trying my faith. Perhaps you are punishing me because I loved him more than I love you. Man has created God in his image which gives him dominance over everything else. Birds, lions, trees and women. I wish I had been born a man, I would have killed thousands in battle, taken over countries, burned witches - I would have been a hero. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: black; color: #990000;"><span style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">That is it, you're nothing but a myth. The Greeks created gods for everything because they could no</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">t figure out why the sea, why love, why death. Now we have created you to appease and feed our fears and ignorance. 'Cause we have so many questions and so few answers. I have used you in prayers to forgive myself for my horrors and sins. A proper burial of feeding the wolves is the same thing. Holy water is just dirty water.<br /><br />Why am I so scared to die? Because I do not believe in you or the eternity of the soul. When I die I shall rot and nothing will be left of me. Love is the dagger that stabbed me in the back. If you are not a myth, absolve me of my sins and give me blood to keep me young. I thank you, my Lord.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #444444;">每當意識到自己根本沒有長進的時候</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">發現自以為的原則被戳破時是既難堪又混亂的</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">不知所措的程度讓自己徹底陷入恐慌</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">一種心有不甘卻不知該向誰討回公道的瘋狂無助</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">一直以來以為自己知道想要的是什麼突然間都不確定了</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">迷失的想痛哭流涕狂錘腦袋</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">年近三十卻回到慘綠青春強說愁的窘境</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">最擅長的自己跟自己說道理竟然使不出來</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">想放棄的能量有多強大</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">可以讓人深陷黑暗無法自拔</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">對一個自以為成熟的人來說著實令人不齒</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">這樣的負面能量簡直像把利刃</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">胡亂的在體內亂劃</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">讓人虛弱到不行 然後腿軟</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">還是想到坐在椅子上然後消失</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">就跟上次一樣 就跟上上次一樣 就跟以前根本一直都一樣</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">我覺得自己真的好讓自己難堪</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">很想瘋狂的攻擊一個人 那個人其實也就是我自己</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">這簡直太糟糕了 英氣全失 被別人看到該怎辦 這太糗了</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">乾掉而黏膩的汗混雜著殘留的香水還有吃過大餐的味道</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">令人噁心到不行 吐完還想再吐</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">實在厭惡到了極點 </span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">太噁心了 簡直太噁心了 非常噁心 噁心到不行</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">好像被人揍過一頓滿臉是血倒在淚水裡</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">然後就不能呼吸了</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">所有爛事又開始瘋狂鑽進腦裡了</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">又這樣了 我就又這樣了 化成一灘臭水</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">妳別這樣</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">煩惱和痛苦本來就是不可能會停止的</span></div>
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<span style="color: #444444;">難道妳不知道嗎?</span></div>
Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-43787178802908407472013-01-07T00:53:00.002+08:002013-01-07T02:52:56.241+08:00liar做事情敢做敢當<br />
虧心事就不要做<br />
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做虧心事不敢當再說謊<br />
十惡不赦<br />
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說謊就是萬惡淵藪<br />
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說謊的人要吞一千根針<br />
不知道嗎<br />
<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-16060880229291965102012-11-16T07:04:00.000+08:002012-11-16T07:05:27.650+08:00自我調適之路<br />
這是必要的自我保護機制<br />
就算做不到毫髮無傷 也至少是種心理建設<br />
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於是除了自我調適之外我無法藉由外部取得平衡<br />
我只能自己在身心上作調整<br />
為了順應這社會世道 我還要做多少調整<br />
我必須做一輩子的調整<br />
人生除了痛苦就是自我調適<br />
而自我調適本身就是個痛苦的循環<br />
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指控別人對自己不好是沒有什麼用處的<br />
頂多得到微薄的情緒宣泄<br />
反正現實就是怎麼樣都無法令人滿意<br />
怎麼樣都得不到想要的<br />
妳只能試圖趨近於所有的理想夢想和慾望<br />
妳越靠近妳就越接近開朗成功與勝利<br />
人生是什麼 人生追求的是什麼?<br />
妳可以花一輩子去調適 但別一輩子都只活在困惑中了<br />
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既然失望和失去都是不可避免的 也別太害怕它們的到來<br />
它們終究會到來 妳要做的就是如何去面對和走過<br />
妳當然可以聽那些傷心的音樂 但也別太傷心了</div>
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<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-80756177282681771552012-10-30T01:21:00.001+08:002012-10-30T01:21:11.800+08:00I'm allergic to bullshit bullshit bullshit<br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">都是混賬 通通給我閉嘴</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">你們的一字一句都讓我打噴嚏 一腳踹開</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">混賬混賬混賬 都是混賬</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">我命中犯賤就是會遇到你們這些亂七八糟的</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">邪魔歪道 江湖郎中 戲子戲精</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">而我遲早會被我自己的愚昧給笑死 </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">我會笑死我 我會被我自己笑死</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">勵志曲目 fitter happier</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Helvetica Neue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 15px; line-height: 24px;">目標是完成一屁股的待辦事項與對抗壓力人生</span></span><br />
Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-53370893526849128712012-09-30T01:48:00.000+08:002012-09-30T01:48:08.047+08:00,<br />
<span style="color: #660000;">時間從不停止流動 又到了這個時節</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">重複消磨情感 </span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">重複 消磨 重複 消磨 重複</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000;">"人最大的煩惱 就是記性太好"</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">一起暢飲醉生夢死酒</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">"是啊 我們是喝酒的朋友嘛"</span><br />
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<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-5001281727559404102012-08-23T17:30:00.000+08:002012-08-23T17:31:17.216+08:00.<iframe allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Fe1NXpICY7Y" width="400"></iframe>Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-47327616679714290642012-08-06T03:30:00.000+08:002012-08-06T23:38:38.393+08:00La Haine<iframe allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" frameborder="0" height="300" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Uvg84nnAdf0" width="380"></iframe><br />
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聽說過那個從摩天樓上掉下來的人嗎?<br />
每當她跌落過一個樓層 就不停對自己說:<br />
"到目前為止還不錯.. 目前為止 還不錯.. 目前為止 還不錯..."<br />
其實你如何墜落並不重要 關鍵是妳如何落地<br />
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所有人事物的所有墜落都適用<br />
it's how you land.Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-22221588021738277552012-07-12T09:28:00.001+08:002012-07-12T09:30:38.543+08:00嫺嫺 2011<br />
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<span style="color: #999999;">The daybreak but no sunshine</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">I sit at my desk with a cigarette</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">my hand shaking</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">depressing music is playing</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">thunder and lightening</span><br />
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<span style="color: #999999;">monkey on my back</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">couldn't get rid of it</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">couldn't self-healing</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">doing lots of things at the same time</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">cannot do them well really</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">my brain non stop running</span><br />
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<span style="color: #999999;">you know what they say</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">about life, hope, love and other stuff</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">gloomy Sunday, Monday, Tuesday,</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">this is what we call living</span><br />
<span style="color: #999999;">everyday is so suffocating</span><br />
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走到餐廳<br />
我用手指挖着巧克力榛果醬 一坨一坨往嘴裡送<br />
瞄著電視廣告播放著好吃多汁的麥當勞<br />
頓時又忘了肥胖中的自己<br />
稍早前好像很煩躁 應該不是關於堆積的脂肪<br />
客廳相當吵<br />
高分貝的政論節目每晚放送<br />
不時伴隨著番薯的咒罵或對著頑童數落政府的不是<br />
真的是非常的吵 相當吵<br />
拉起那片塑膠簾子仍舊吵到不行<br />
真是令人焦躁到不行的噪音<br />
抓了黃色peace和書走到陽台<br />
自以為遠離塵囂般的小暢快<br />
濃濃的煙味充斥着口鼻和喉嚨<br />
說實在的 這樣苦澀的氣體究竟有什麼好<br />
簡直難聞到了極點<br />
所以說我從小便非常痛恨煙味和食菸者<br />
不過所謂人(我本身)就是常常變成自己所痛恨的人<br />
不知道這跟不要鐵齒是不是一個道理<br />
至少在我的成長歷程中<br />
當我討厭死了某人的某項特質 特別是與我親近之人<br />
我竟會隨著時間不知不覺被感染這種特質或習慣<br />
說是感染仿佛是想把自己撇清一樣<br />
好像一切都不是我的問題 錯不在我<br />
好像我只是被傳染被影響的 我本不是這種人<br />
好狡猾的一個字眼<br />
但不管如何 人格就在這種不管狡不狡猾當中生成了<br />
它們成為了我的一部分 夠成了我這個人<br />
像甩不掉的瘡疤 像浮現在皮膚上的烙痕<br />
而我因為已經習慣幾乎絲毫不以為意<br />
為什麼喜歡半夜<br />
因為所謂正常的晚間對我來說太吵<br />
不知道這是否算是熬夜的藉口<br />
但仔細聽聽<br />
此刻就只有我的電腦傳出悠悠的音樂以及敲擊鍵盤的咖拉聲<br />
這種感覺多麼自在輕鬆<br />
像是一切都靜止了<br />
是的 我當然知道沒有<br />
時間從來不等我 並且在夜間我特別覺得它跑得飛快<br />
祥和的感覺從不持久<br />
燃燒夜半光陰所換來的平和<br />
將導致作息的顛倒或睡眠的不足<br />
將導致被冠上不正常這稱號<br />
將導致一天到晚的睡過頭與錯過<br />
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妳就做點什麼吧 雅筑姊Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-23010819061972609062012-05-10T23:51:00.000+08:002012-09-30T01:27:10.455+08:00vomit<br />
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有多痛恨下雨天呢<br />
這問題不知道自問自答了多少回<br />
像是衝撞到了飛翔的蟑螂媽媽<br />
像是身心俱疲且髒亂的趕着報告<br />
像是第一段戀情的痛苦惆悵與黏膩感<br />
像是去年10月某日走在回家路上音樂播放到frande某首歌時的哀傷<br />
配合著進水的鞋揪揪揪 好不暢快<br />
像被人一腳踹入深淵般的無助低潮<br />
像被欺瞞戲弄<br />
像年紀增長喝蝦宿醉眼壓飆高快爆炸的痛楚<br />
這股阿炸不適<br />
像是掙扎百萬回才從唇間忸怩擠出對熟人的一句對不起<br />
再拿飲酒來做比方<br />
像是爛醉翌日醒來隱形眼鏡沒拔滿眼眼屎臉部堆滿穢物全身黏踢踢的厭惡感<br />
阿 我好髒喔 還自爆慘況<br />
搭計程車阿 可是都沒錢了搭個屁呢<br />
音樂轉大聲一點阿<br />
可是音樂好心碎 如雷貫耳的穿透我全身<br />
就竟在忙些什麼呢 說說看啊<br />
又想自己嘲笑自己了啊<br />
扣除深夜的看片上網聽音樂下載活動以及玩小遊戲<br />
是也有在做些正經事<br />
這樣嗎 但為何說得如此心酸<br />
像滿口塞滿黃連<br />
潮濕的天氣搭配低潮就是地獄 阿鼻地獄<br />
上刀山下油鍋般的折磨身心<br />
自言自語自我說服自己跟自己講道理<br />
怎麼樣卻還是想翻桌<br />
好沒長進喔 翻桌這句話是否從大學時代就愛拿出來講了<br />
妳哪有這麼痛苦呢(我覺得好像有啊)<br />
嗚哇!襪!!!!!<br />
人類究竟是傷心了才飲酒還是飲酒了財傷心<br />
要點撥台灣老歌了嗎<br />
別說開心也是會飲酒這我知道 但不再討論範圍內<br />
何以會覺得如此疲累暴躁<br />
我知道我知道 我只是說說又沒怎樣<br />
每天都還是人模人樣笑嗨嗨的出門阿<br />
又是牢騷靠北的流水帳<br />
我這就又自溺吧 厭世<br />
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<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-43213415934998725232012-04-17T07:42:00.000+08:002012-04-20T13:56:05.782+08:00痛痛的100種方式<br />
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<span style="color: #444444;">就是像心被揉爛那樣 皺的亂七八糟卻無法粉碎</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">難道是重新生長的心比較強韌?</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">雖說也還未到七老八十的姿態去笑看人生仿佛歷盡滄桑</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">但至少分辨得出一些關於傷心痛苦的形容詞句</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">也就是在成長的過程中發現那些字眼不只是形容詞這件事</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">體驗欄的詞彙便隨著年紀的增長而增加</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">舉例來說 光是被揉皺 還可分為不同的質感</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">像是透著光的描圖紙 或是暗沈淡然的牛皮紙</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">還有錐心刺痛和心碎等等 也可在往下細分</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">人類真是細膩敏感又脆弱的生物阿</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">而願意花時間去品味這些痛楚的 腦袋還真是不得閒</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">每次的殘局都是怎麼收拾的?</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">很簡單阿隨時間的流逝自己會埋藏療癒</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">成就了帶著瘀青疤痕的每個個體和現在</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">傷口沒處理好的就是不時淌個血瘋瘋癲癲</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #444444;">生活裡的一切很有可能都是惡魔般的存在</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">誘惑你去觸碰 卻又不時的挖掘摩擦著舊傷</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">音樂 電影 照片 氣味 物件 場景 對白 天外飛來的片段記憶</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">也許忙於生活或圖謀生存時讓人忘卻那些曾經</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">不過它們也許就是轉化增生變種成了什麼隱隱作痛(再細分阿)</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">以及形成下一次不知為何的疼痛</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">每每心中自以老派的一句"所謂人生"作結</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">不過事實便是如此 成長便是如此 生活便是如此</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">我們早就知道心理上的痛苦不管有多嚴重都是死不掉的</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">痛到發狂 痛到打滾 痛到無語 痛到束手無策 痛到麻木不仁</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">只要能呼吸和進食就會以百般不堪的姿態活著</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">上學 上班 無法動彈 把酒狂歡 樣樣還是做得來</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">不過一痛還有一痛痛(是智障句型但我愛用)</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">就像你永遠不會知道究竟如何才是真正的最低潮 直至死亡那刻</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #444444;">心痛有很多種其實應該是很日常的一件事</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">就像肚子痛 頭痛 牙痛 眼睛痛 哪裡的皮肉痛等等</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">它們都以各種邪惡的方式凌虐著大家並囂張的存在著</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">就自己呼呼 不然你找人幫你呼一呼就沒事了啊 哼(輕鬆)</span><br />
<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-30490741682446356452012-03-31T05:31:00.000+08:002012-03-31T21:51:02.513+08:00像是一坨屎<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/p8Abq4jCVy4" width="420"></iframe>
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煩惱論文 目睹官商勾結欺壓百姓 夜間上網 看片 閱讀<br />
零碎藝術相關活動(?) 有時借酒消愁<br />
這是一股難以言喻的阿炸 裡外皺在一起煩成一大團<br />
身心許多通道受到阻塞 不順暢的生活著 淤積<br />
當然時常會想我的未來究竟是? 而又台灣的未來究竟是? 人類的未來呢?<br />
然後再把問題往回推 縮小 嘗試解決<br />
塞入些破碎的正面觀感 試著往積極人生靠近<br />
不合理的事是那麼的多 大大小小 隨時衝撞<br />
所有看不順眼的人事物於腦內堆積 在身體發酵<br />
一切想顧慮到的人事物瘋狂跑馬燈 繚繞不止<br />
導致間歇性的會進入一種崩壞狀態<br />
感覺像是火山 有時是劇烈的大噴發 有時則為緩慢流動的炙熱岩漿<br />
然後又自己默默的冷卻平息<br />
就像面對衰老般的無可奈何<br />
服用了大量的甜食<br />
也於事無補 只是隨便找個藉口大吃阿<br />
妳好空洞喔 多讀點書吧妳Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-50055647124907625122012-02-07T06:29:00.000+08:002012-02-07T10:27:58.293+08:00說謊的人 要吞一千根針哦<br />
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<span style="color: #444444;">方才一不小心又連結起這個故事 是有這麼好連結</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">老姑娘了這麼多愁善感(che)</span>
<span style="color: #444444;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">年輕時期總會三不五十就在網誌上留下文字</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">彷彿心事重重呼吸都是憂鬱空氣的慘綠少女</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">雖說自認在心態上算是有所成長(慘文率銳減)</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">但在情緒方面其實是越來越糟的</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">不過該習慣的也都習慣 該學習處理的也都拿在手上</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">念不完的研究所逢人就被問 停滯的人生很煩</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">方向盤一轉 到這歲數還在有點迷茫的未來也很煩</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">而那些總隨著一些影像音樂和照片而來的回憶則好酸</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">放完年假的這陣子一直在日夜顛倒的大睡覺和上網</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">夜半的時間飛也似的 一去不回</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">而且一直好餓 不管晚餐吃多飽(年輕時都不會阿)</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #444444;">好吧過去的人們 我現在就給你們一個隱形的擁抱</span><br />
<span style="color: #444444;">不介意我手上的餅乾屑吧</span>Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-71204008298282130842012-01-18T20:12:00.002+08:002012-01-18T21:16:02.833+08:00關於嘴唇<span style="color: #ea9999;">基本上我是個算注重唇部保養的人</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">隨時補充護唇膏 睡前也塗上厚厚一層才能安心入眠</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">因為我有種身上有任何地方脫皮就想把它去除的強迫症</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">要是哪天我沒戴護唇膏嘴唇乾裂皮在飄 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">一定會一直玩弄它直到它脫落 說不定會見血 這很糟</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">要是看到朋友嘴唇過乾我也會非常看不下去的建議她/他擦個護唇膏</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">這真的是為了嘴唇好 也比較不會分散聽者的注意力(至少像我這種人)</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">嘴唇有多脆弱 讓我來說兩個小故事</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">某個在東京飄著小雨沒帶傘的小颱風早晨 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">準備出發要去橫濱美術館 正覺得一切有點雖 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">拉起衣帽在hostel門口點燃一根煙作為開始</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">殊不知唇部太乾 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">大吸一口之後沒注意濾嘴緊黏在脣上 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">雙指直接滑過煙體順利經過煙頭</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">然後燙傷我的食指內側 迅雷不及掩耳 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">我沒有要唱秋意濃 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">很痛!!WTF!!!</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">後面一堆雖事更多 不過不甘脣乾的事了 總之那天不是我的天</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">包括當天美術館根本沒開和回程搭錯線還站著睡著等等</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">從上面的小故事得知 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">一般的香煙濾嘴足以附著於我們唇部 捲煙的粘性更是強了一些</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">某個睡醒渾沌的中午還下午 半張著眼上著網捲了根煙放入嘴</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">小吸一口將它取出的同時 說時遲那時快 它粘住 但也沒韁持太久</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">我也就這麼樣順勢將它抽出 覺得味道怪怪 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">舔一舔還是怪怪 看一下濾嘴它紅了 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">見血了阿搞什麼我的下唇內側!!WTF!!!</span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">感覺歸納起來</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">我們最容易被襲擊的時間點就是睡醒後的那段期間</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">請大家務必要格外小心才行</span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">還有就是少抽煙 </span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;">smokers die younger</span>
<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-80829717747512378042011-12-06T02:03:00.000+08:002011-12-20T05:54:29.951+08:00another ordinary day<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">我沒說要吃漢堡 也不想吃冷飯 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">總之我胃口不是很好</span><br />
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這是妳起床第一杯咖啡嗎?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">所以手中這杯黑咖啡和菸就行了 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">再加上巧克力也ok</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">總之不用麻煩了
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">突然快速的眨眼一陣</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">是純粹的眼皮不自覺輕微抽動</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #45818e;">還是腦中突然閃過了什麼片段或鎖碎的事沒有</span><br />
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Angus Stone, Jesus Christ, just save my soul.<br />
<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-89500213639754908332011-11-28T06:45:00.001+08:002011-12-07T12:27:07.786+08:00妳這老妖每次在翻譯或打英文文章時都懊惱地想嚎啕大哭<br />
妳真的是外文系畢業的嗎大嬸?!<br />
妳英文也太爛了吧糙!!!<br />
我去妳的去妳的去妳的啊!<br />
回去多念幾年書吧妳!在這幹嘛啊!!<br />
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每次跟老骨頭排舞的時候都心寒的想一頭撞死<br />
妳大學四年真的有跳過舞嗎阿姨?!<br />
妳舞感也太差了吧靠!!!<br />
我去妳的去妳的去妳的啊!!!<br />
回去從基礎律動開始蹲吧妳!比旁邊的阿公阿嬤還差!!<br />
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整個大學生涯就是白活了阿我看是,,,我看就是!!!<br />
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說說妳的藝術圈研究所生活啊<br />
說葛屁!碩三了還不知道論文要寫什麼說葛屁!!<br />
哇!!!!!<br />
自作孽不可活!妳這個妖孽!<br />
貪吃妖!拖拉妖!不睡妖!遲到妖!<br />
失去青春失去靈魂的大嬸婆就是妳了阿啊啊!!!<br />
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最後是傷心欲絕為我量身定做的人生金曲<br />
每天早晚不管有沒有入睡都想含淚高歌一百遍<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">如果不夠可愛就去裝可愛</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">如果不會裝可愛那就裝可憐</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">如果連裝可憐都不會</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">那就去站在旁邊吹夾雜著落葉的冷風吧</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">誰叫連這點事兒都做不來</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">另外就是當走在大街上時</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">就算只是自顧自地走自己的路</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">也是會有瘋狗衝出來咬妳</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">毫無頭緒 措手不及</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">這個世界就是這麼無理取鬧這麼嗆</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">到底是懂不懂會不會啊</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;"><b>下半身女孩</b>的出走完全是雪上加霜</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">台北市果然如此這般恐怖</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">大家都這麼不想回到這陰鬱城市就對了</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">日本妹這個大動作實在太傷我的心 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">怎能在這時候離開我?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">明明說好還要一起去很多地方旅行的</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">她是被拐走被偷走的吧 我看就是</span><br />
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<br />Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-28065765624057374852011-10-06T06:18:00.000+08:002011-10-06T06:52:07.196+08:00豈止是卡痰<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">喉嚨裡像是爬了一隻大蜘蛛</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">她卡在那慌亂了陣腳 那有多可怕 她腳那麼多</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">我的喉頭之癢 重點是簡直就要窒息</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">亦無法將她嘔出 她太倔強頑強</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">我無法說話 連個屁都沒有</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">瞪大了佈滿血絲的眼珠看著一個個的觀眾</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">在入秋輕颱的雨天我的眼角無法停止流汗</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">沒事沒事 沒什麼事 觀賞完記得投錢</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">我本來就沒什麼話要說</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;">大蜘蛛就是知道這樣她才故意爬進我的喉嚨</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #134f5c;"><br /></span>Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-13331499544472673722011-09-26T14:01:00.000+08:002013-05-22T19:40:24.230+08:002LDK<span style="color: #660000;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000;">女性的廝殺總是伴隨著神經質和不經意的拖延和折磨</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">所以說有時何必苦苦相逼</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">有些人都是會被逼瘋的阿可不是</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;">歡迎大家搬椅子</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;"><br /></span>Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-61248079509884248362011-09-16T02:42:00.003+08:002011-10-06T06:21:50.510+08:00I'm sorry<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">對不起 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我實在是又要嘔吐 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我又要全身痙攣 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">整個連腦神經都抽慉 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">搖頭晃腦的 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">她一直連續內爆破我都來不及阻止 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">又再度束手無策 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我感到很抱歉</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">開了滿山遍野的花 天空藍的發黑</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我視力很差根本看不清楚</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">辦公桌後的白袍先生隨便說說的</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">他隨便看看隨便說 我知道 </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我聽他在澇賽</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">姑且稱之為臉的形狀決定論罷</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;"><br /></span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">眼壓又再度標高</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">思緒中斷一百萬回</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">每一個人每一句話密密麻麻鑽進我耳裡</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">而後支離破碎的殘留在腦中的不知何處</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">蛤?</span>
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">稍早前眼睛超熱狂冒一堆汗</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">再不回頭去把那封email打完就太可恥了</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;"><br /></span>Yang Yachuhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14082854304349067466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4247345016513995858.post-30382656469891654422011-09-11T08:30:00.000+08:002011-09-11T11:44:35.674+08:00清血管<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">one of the most beautiful scene </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #660000;">我始終非死不可,不能不死。 讓我替你洗去你的罪吧。</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">一般來說打文章快接近尾聲即將可以交出時</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">大家就算沒有雀躍,心情也該會逐漸開朗起來</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">然而那卻是我本人最為焦躁的時候</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">腦袋越來越慌亂,幾近痲痹,甚至慘白</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">時間流逝聲響咚咚噹噹在腦中迴盪的超大聲</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">桌面煙灰飛散量達到最高點,風還一直吹</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">雙腿盤起又垂下 再盤起 又再垂下 不斷重復</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">腰桿打直又駝背 再打直 又再駝背 一直循環</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">坐姿怎麼喬都不對勁,我實在超不舒服的,我全身都不舒服</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">這時我通常都會跟自己說:不煩不煩,我一點都不覺得煩</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">喘大氣 深呼吸 都没屁用</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">永遠在最後一秒將成果狼狽送出</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">每次寫了超久的東西最後總覺得很不怎樣</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">不像什麼嘔心瀝血反倒像是便秘,怎摸會這樣</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">我這究竟是什麼症頭?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #999999;">撰文綜合焦慮症暨結尾腦中風症候群。</span><br />
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