There's always something authentic concealed in every forgery.
Emotions are like work of art. They can be forged. They seem just like they're original, but they are forgery. Everything can be faked, joy, pain, hate, illness, recovery, even love.
Monday 14 October 2013
Tuesday 24 September 2013
The Countess [2009]
God, perhaps you are trying my faith. Perhaps you are punishing me because I loved him more than I love you. Man has created God in his image which gives him dominance over everything else. Birds, lions, trees and women. I wish I had been born a man, I would have killed thousands in battle, taken over countries, burned witches - I would have been a hero.
That is it, you're nothing but a myth. The Greeks created gods for everything because they could not figure out why the sea, why love, why death. Now we have created you to appease and feed our fears and ignorance. 'Cause we have so many questions and so few answers. I have used you in prayers to forgive myself for my horrors and sins. A proper burial of feeding the wolves is the same thing. Holy water is just dirty water.
Why am I so scared to die? Because I do not believe in you or the eternity of the soul. When I die I shall rot and nothing will be left of me. Love is the dagger that stabbed me in the back. If you are not a myth, absolve me of my sins and give me blood to keep me young. I thank you, my Lord.
- Elizabeth Bathory
Thursday 18 July 2013
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這該怎麼說 連對自己都難以啟齒
每當意識到自己根本沒有長進的時候
發現自以為的原則被戳破時是既難堪又混亂的
不知所措的程度讓自己徹底陷入恐慌
一種心有不甘卻不知該向誰討回公道的瘋狂無助
一直以來以為自己知道想要的是什麼突然間都不確定了
迷失的想痛哭流涕狂錘腦袋
年近三十卻回到慘綠青春強說愁的窘境
最擅長的自己跟自己說道理竟然使不出來
想放棄的能量有多強大
可以讓人深陷黑暗無法自拔
對一個自以為成熟的人來說著實令人不齒
這樣的負面能量簡直像把利刃
胡亂的在體內亂劃
讓人虛弱到不行 然後腿軟
還是想到坐在椅子上然後消失
就跟上次一樣 就跟上上次一樣 就跟以前根本一直都一樣
我覺得自己真的好讓自己難堪
很想瘋狂的攻擊一個人 那個人其實也就是我自己
這簡直太糟糕了 英氣全失 被別人看到該怎辦 這太糗了
乾掉而黏膩的汗混雜著殘留的香水還有吃過大餐的味道
令人噁心到不行 吐完還想再吐
實在厭惡到了極點
太噁心了 簡直太噁心了 非常噁心 噁心到不行
好像被人揍過一頓滿臉是血倒在淚水裡
然後就不能呼吸了
所有爛事又開始瘋狂鑽進腦裡了
又這樣了 我就又這樣了 化成一灘臭水
妳別這樣
煩惱和痛苦本來就是不可能會停止的
難道妳不知道嗎？
Monday 7 January 2013
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